Its all in the mind

I always wanted to be a sportsmen, someone who is actively engaged in sports and are good at them, but that's not happening, I can't even play actively with my peers (particularly soccer) and I'd no idea what went wrong. The only sport that I think I'm good in, is badminton, the good here is being able to play but not of any standards.

For once I thought court games is my sport, so I took up tennis. Well, I was wrong, it just seemed too fast for me to pick it up. However, there's one thing I enjoyed, the encouragement from the couch, I think that's what that keeps me going.

I told my problem to a senior, and he told me this: "Sometimes, we have to be self driven, you can't possibly get encouragement every time. Sports is like a mind game, the stronger mind will emerged as the winner.". All, the time, while I was playing the game, I'd think of things like "Will I hit the ball right? ", "Will people laugh at me if I missed? ", or "Am I hitting the right way? " , instead of focusing at the opponent and the ball. Its quite demoralizing actually, and maybe that's the thing I'd've to overcome...

Watching sports is far more easier... I guess...

Fear?

Its good to feel fear, fear of ghost, fear of someone. The greatest fear is not fear itself, but its not being able to feel fear, it means you not nothing to lose...

I read this from somewhere and I find it very true...

Galactic Weapon?

I am sure many of us have watch Starwars, Gundam series or any sci-fi film that has this almighty weapon shooting through the space. This had very well became a reality, if you have watched the news or read the article on yahoo, you'll probably know, there's this black hole that shoots a stream of deadly radiation particles across the galaxy, clearing anything in its path.

Well, imagine it as an "advance civilization" trying to show their dominions across the galaxy. What if its pointed towards Earth? This can be a great subject for the next Steven Spielberg film...

The ugly side...

Everybody has to deal with their problems at some point of their life, for my brother it was his obese problem. When he become fit, and one day I overheard this conversion of him with my mom saying how he hated people to call him fatty or something along the line. Well, he overcome his problem. For once, I thought "hey, he is determine and organise", but that changed yesterday.
For what he did, all the flaws just flood into my mind, everything I thought of him as good become ugly. He's self-centred, and he always keeps his own things clean but not in the thoughts of others.
I don't care if he reads my blog or not, it's better if he read it then he'll know, I don't like to express my displease of other unless they really get to my nerves.

The Nihongo XP

When your windows xp startup, all you'll hear is the startup music. For the Japanese user its a totally different story...
Apparently, its a tactic used by Bill Gates to sell XP to the Japanese... I wonder if they'll do the same to vista?

A simple remark?

People loves to make remarks especially towards other people, be it a bombarded one or a simple one it could've meant no harm. Sometimes, no knowingly we make remarks that seem simple... well, just to provoke laughter, but to others it could be insulting and therefore, hurting that person deeply...

It's just a remark eh? Think again...

"Brocked"?

Its been awhile since my last post... ITS school holiday! There's not much happening, its all eat-sleep-work-play. Nothing much had triggered me to write, even if there is, its either I don't've the urge to write it down or I dunno how to translate it into words (or at least I do not want to)... Perhaps, when school term starts I'll have more things to share, its just one week away!...

Bored

This is what I do when I'm bored, draw random things.

My laptop (again?!~) and my mouse

Nintendo!!!

Nintendo will always be a strong contender in the gaming industry, they never fails to deliver, just look at SNES, original Gameboy, N64, and now DS/Wii, it doesn't matter whether they lost the lead before, but they certainly are in the lead now!

Crimson/Black Nintendo DS lite

A nice day out in Granado Espada

Indulging in the world of gaming

My baby...

Take a look at my baby (taken with its little brother camera)

What games do...

Compare games now to 10 years ago, there's a big difference, the technological advancement, you can do more than just playing games. Now you can even direct your characters in doing certain actions and recording them down using screenshots or ingame recorder and edit them to your likings. Granado Espada provides such feature...

My friend call it "Gaynado Sexpada"

Its here!

Well, the exams are finally over, and now comes the holidays... Yay! I've been yearning this "stressfree-ness" like forever... I think I did quite terribly for this semester, I really hope I can get through it without retaking any modules...

In the midst of this stressfree-ness, I think many people will do the same think as I am, think about things, the past, the present and the future. Think about the first day in school, the orientation and how everyone get together, and who sit besides you, and how the class break into groups and how friends grow to love each other to not talking to one another for no reason, or maybe there is but they just don't want to talk about it. And remember how everyone join SIT club with all the enthusiasm to have fun and know more friends, friends that you'll never know you'll become close with, and friends that will take in all your shits that you never thought anyone will.

Everyone changed, or maybe I just failed to accept certain things, certain aspects about myself or others...

Savour

Kinder bueno + Coke light = Euphory

SIT Club...

Its been half a year already, it's hard believe how I actually spent my last semestral holiday there, and how many friends I came to know, the happy times we've been through together. I've never know so many people in a few weeks time. I've also never in life that I use so much English to communicate with people. There's so many "first" in SIT club... After the Orientation, many people loses interest and enthusiasm due to school work or even their personal reasons, I was on the verge too, but still I made it to 1 of the 4 post Orientation events, that is Phat Nite IV...

During the chalet, the very last chalet after all the events, it kinda reminds me of the orientation times as OGLs, how we laugh together and everything. As much as I know, I've grown to love and hate this place so much that I don't want to acknowledge it.

This is it, it's all over, is it? For me it is, but for others, they are only half way there...Wish everyone good luck.... and thank you!

一人一半，感情不散。。。

881, the latest feature form Royston Tan, had created quite a lot of buzz when it came out. I always like the way he directs his film, he always have this documentary touch to it, with this voice over, it tells the story as the movie unfolds, and how he process the film, the use of flamboyant colours or sometimes perceived as a little bit too saturated, it adds a lomographic feel to it. The special effects used makes the movie more funny and interesting to look at, while some people may perceive it as a spoiler to the movie. There is this fantasyness in the movie and together with the special effects, it made it look very dramatic.

The music and songs plays a very important role in this movie, as it is subtitled as Singapore's first musical-themed movie. The success of a musical really depends on the songs in it. In this film, it has quite a number of catchy tunes, the songs is exactly like those sung on the "getai" but with contemporary touches in it.

The acting from the leads were great, they were able the bring out the characters they are portraying and it adds a little touching bits to the rather funny movie...

This movie tell us that sometimes ties with family and friends are not so easily broken, even though they show disconcern but it does not always mean they hate each other, it could be the strong-headedness that they failed to admit their love. It also gives the younger generation a look at the "getai"...

Synopsis of the film

What moms do?

When you got nothing to do... don't ever scared the shit out of your mom by grabbing her legs from below the bed while she is watching a horror movie, chances are, she'll kick the shit out of you... REALLY...

Just what friends do...

Close friends often think that if their best friend likes someone else too, then the supply of affection available to the original friend will diminish.

This may or may not be so, but the perception that affection is scarce may well create genuine conflict between the friends.

This thing happens and most of the time people choose not to confront it, and it'll worsen. And eventually friendships will fall out...

Looking back...

Maybe acknowledgement is what I really want... That is acknowledgement to everything... I guess...

Sibling's...

Being the youngest in the family is not always a good thing, eventhough you are showered with all the care and love, tremendous stress also befalls upon you. You'll have a feeling that you are living under your brother's and sister's shadows.

Sometimes, when you do things, you kinda follow their foot steps or sort. The way you do things or even the way you treat people reflects a lot on their characteristics, whether its good or bad. Maybe this is what growing up is about... People influences people, especially close ones.

Sometimes, when you tell your brother and sister something, they treat it as though you were stupid and spouting nonsense, they'll shut you out immediately leaving you a disbelieve look... Perhaps, its the age difference that cause all that, after all, they MAY have more "life" experience than you... Or maybe, its just you, how you look at the problem.

Being a single child has its advantage too... I guess...

Paranoia?

Things are getting rough now, school, projects, assignments, peer pressure...

As you grow older, you have more responsibility and more of it means more stress. When you're feeling stressed, you get trapped in the small world of yours, you'll think that everyone is so smart and good at what their doing and you'll feel depressed.

I always try to keep myself happy, when anything happens I'll try to forget it the next day... Why is everyone doing so hard? Maybe it is what it means to survive in this sociality. In turn, people may think that I'm shallow and not approachable...

Well, we have choices, I just choose not to affect the people around me...

"Java" the Indonesian island?

CRAP! Java is not the Indonesian island, it's JAVA programming... Well, seriously I am hating this! Fuck it! I know shits about it...

After all the...

I just don't understand... Sometimes we do things by not knowing what you gonna achieve, it is because of peer pressure or you really want it? After a while you'll feel numb about what you're and every thing just don't make sense, but some how you just feel you should continue doing it...

FUCK THE GST!

7%... from 5% to 7%, when will it be 15%?
Well, today I went to buy milk, it was $2.50... like always I love to bring the exact among.
So, I take the milk walk to the counter n pay the auntie $2.50. Then the anutie said "eh... its $2.70..." then I was like WTF, luckily the anutie said nvm and let me go...

National Stadium

After 34 years of service, the national stadium walks into history, with numerous events being held there, its ironic to see, of cause its also a little sad for people, after all its been a Singapore icon since, and all the things that goes with it...

Emancipated?

After a week's of sleepless night, and 3 encounter at the battlefield the war is over! The common test week is OFFICIALLY over! What's next? Well, it'd be conflicts with the lecturers and projects....

Are you a train?

Have you ever wonder, when you were on a train, you look down on the tracks, this thing just came to you. It's like you are the train, it get bumpy at certain point. Also, at certain point you have to let people in, when the people inside gets too densed, you'll've to move slower.

When you got nothing that you want to do, chances are, you'll sit down at one corner and reflects upon what had happened. Well, I think for most people its pretty much screwed up. There are things that you wished that you had let them out, but thinking about it, people will feel weird. Especially, when you wanna to talk about life. You try to talk to friend, but no one listens. You try to hint them, but no one cares. You try to make yourself feel better, but your friends just make it worst. And when you want to make others better, it'll just be the same as always. You'll think you had tried too little, or maybe you really should try harder...

The Words That Got Written All Over Your Face

When your friends discuss about something where you only came to know when they said it... Well, its clear that you have the words "please-ask-me-to-go-too" written all over your face...

What?

What should I say?
Am I lucky or not?
Well, seriously I dunno...
Is it a prank?
Am I that good?
I am a joke?
I love to whine...
Maybe I need more time...
I don't have the confidence...
I may not be used to it...
I may not be what you think I am...

Tresses

This is what you do? Vol. 2

Earlier today, something happened in one of the labs in school, under the eyes of all the classmates and the lecturer. Well my classmate beside me asked me something and this is roughly what happened:

Rachel: "Eh... your there got hole?

Me: "Eh... no more leh, I've taken the last hole. You want ar? I pull mine out lo. I let you poke in first lo, mine still can last abit, when it dies then you pull out and let me poke in lo"

Rachel: "hahahahohohahaha... -_, neimine lah, mine still can last"

Me: "I can let you poke mine!, mine is for 3 holes, your also rite? Oohh~ no.. yours is for 2 holes only, the 3rd one is plastic made"

Girls seating oppersite: "heeheeeeehahaha"

Well, the labs' PC simply suck! That's why these things happens, we have to share the limited A/C power HOLES...

This is what you do?

When you have a proposal to write, you know what to do but you got no ideas for it and someone asked you how to do, well, chances are, I'll tell, tell them how to do. Here is a example, we have to write a scenerio in the report, and this is the example i gave to my friend:

Rachel had jus reach puperty, she was curious about the BGR thing, so, she asked her parents, but her parents were too shy to talk about these things. She hopped on to the internet, she search for such topics, and she stumbled upon this site, there are videos and demostrations in it...

The name I used is the person's who'd asked me how to do...

Disappointed?

Well, sometimes you'll be disappointed with yourself, especially when you have a goal in mind and judging by the shitty things that you are producing, you feel that you are so far away from it. When you feel really disappointed about yourself, you may even start to hallucinate people talking bad about you. Everything around you will seem to be going down the hill. But fret not, it'll be alright when you have a good night's rest, and a brand new day awaits...

Thinking back...

Well, my mum dug out this hamster stuff-toy the other day, it kinda reminds me of my hamster pet and how I cried when it died. When you think back, it is pretty naive, but this is how human nature is, to wanna take care of somebody or something to be able to feel life. And whenever I think of dead hamster, I'll remember someone once told me that he "incinerated" his hamster on the stove...

It was not me! I buried my mine...

Please stop!

Get off my life!

Stop the wispers!

AND DON'T TALK TO ME!
I'm going mad, am I?

Is it even normal?
FUCK!!!

Sometimes again...

Sometimes, when you are doing things, while most of the people think you are doing the right thing, there'll always be one or two person shaking their heads or trying to find faults in you, to sobotage you and to mock you. There'll be a few times where they'll do it successfully, to pull you down from the high. Really, if you didn't think through things thoroughly, you'll make a fool of yourself...

First thing

Everything feels so different this semester, meeting to so many people last school holiday, I feel weird having to say "hi" every now and then...

Dawn of a new semester

In just less than eight hours, a new semester will commence, guess what? The first lesson is the dreadful maths. Tell you the truth, this sem... It's gonna be a boring one for me, there's not really any modules that I'm particularly interested with besides Japanese Language 2.

Many things had changed, I wonder...
I'm damn nervous now, and little excited at the same time, I'm looking forward to it!

How it should be?

Spending a lot of time with your friends may proved yourself wrong of what you think you would be, or at lease to what you don't wished to be. They may make you think that you were important, but the actions they do tells you otherwise. Maybe it's yourself, the actions you do or the things you said made them do the otherwise, but they do bring joy sometimes.

It's confusing to think, the more you think, the more it contradicts. This is the conclusion that I got after four days of chalet with some old friends. The four days stay reminded me of something, "Am I a changed person? Or am I the old me?"...

THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA

"Good day! Madame and Monsieur! Welcome to the Opera Populaire! Let me present to you, THE PHANTOM OF THE OPERA!"

After 10 long years the PHANTOM is back in town again! With bigger sets and cast. There's only one word to descript the experience,

Breathtaking!

It's wow-ing to see the chandelier crashing on the stage, and there were sparks and fire gusting out from the stage as well. If you are watching the stage version for the very first time, you'll be astoned by the lightings, moving sets and the special effects they used, the depth of the stage and the moving sets makes it dynamic and really interesting to watch. The costumes were great, colourful and the sets were gigantic. I'm mesmerised by it! I was charmed by the music, and everything just went really well with it. It's an experience that I'll never forget!

The very first here...

This is the very first thing that I post here...

eh...

EMPTYYYYYYY

April fifth!

April 5th was the day, the day where it came to an end. After 3 weeks of immerse planning and 4 days of labour, the School of Information Technology Freshmen Orientation '07/'08 ended with a success! You'll not know how much you've learnt until the very last day. This is the time where you'll really know what “give and take” is, and also fulfilling your obligations as an Orientation Group leader, there's many thing that you have to abide to as an OGL, you'll have to give up many things like time, and some of your bad "behaviours". You'll have to come out of your comfort zone be a role model for the freshmen to see, and it takes tons of courage to bond them together, you've to make your stance for something that you think its right and fighting for it.

2nd – 5th of April, its where the real actions is, it is also the time that you'll learn most, and its also where new bridges are made. Together with 3 other OGLs, we were appointed to class of MI0705. They were so dead on the first day, I guess everyone was just shy, as the day pass they become bonded, they even make fun of us OGLs. After the grand finale, they had their very first class outing and that’s where their story begins. Besides MI07o5, I was also appointed to another group, the dancer group, they are individuals form various IT diplomas. They were to perform on stage on the grand finale. This is a bunch of crazy kids, they are talkative and obnoxious. With another 3 OGLs, we taught them the moves, and they just move on with it. They are really good at it! I was really nervous when they were on stage, but they just pull through!

The bunch of CRAZY "money" kids("money" came from the song "show me your money" which they have to dance to)

Through out the 3 weeks of planning, these thoughts came to me, “why wasn’t I chosen to be the one to lead the OGLs? Do the ICs have what it takes to lead us? Why wasn’t I given an important post? And why I give up the chance of being an IC?” I wanted to give up halfway through, but to think about it, actually I didn't do much for people to notice me and then I remember this quote,

“Good leadership means being able to lead, follow and listen”.

Maybe my time was not here yet, if I can’t even follow a simple instruction, how can I lead people? I am glad that I was not chosen, as it comes a greater responsibility that I may not know how to handle yet.

On the last diploma debrief, the seniors give us a piece of advice or encouragement. Coincidently, the encouragement was the same as the above quote. They can’t be that observant, can they? Or was my craving too visible?

The piece of encouragement

Its April...

APRIL

FOOLS!!!

Zombie!

Well, while I was staying overnight at school I had a foresight, that next day, there'll be zombies walking at the atrium. Then suddently the props we made turn into real ones and the people that didn't turn zombie took all the "weapons" to blast all the zombies! Then on the same night I had a dream and in that dream I saw a pile of meat dancing... these really happened eventhough the night is not over yet...

Tttttiiiiirrrrreeeeeddddd!

Being an OGL is just so fucking...

EXHAUSTING

FUCK EVERYBODY!!!!

Hot...

Note: Please read this post first

The weather was blazing hot, I had nothing to do, I was laying down on my bed and I fell asleep. Strangly when I woke up I was at another place, a long corridor, it was dark and creepy, everywhere's stained! I saw people! I run foward, there were nurses, I stopped suddently, the nurses have deformed figure and face, they were not moving, I got scared and I turn and run back the way I came! As I run my leg got heavier and I was on the ground and couldn't move, I fainted. When I woke up, I was laying on the corridor outside my house... Was it a dream or what?

Before happy there is...

While I was on my way to school today, something just came into my mind, "What brings happiness?". I sorta think it through, and this conclusion came to me. That is, in order to have or feel happiness, you first have to go through sadness. You must first know what's sad to feel what's happy. I guess that's also what we first learnt when we are being brought to this world.

When you are in "them"

You may think or hope that you are the one that is shinning or getting the attention form the surrounding people, you may be wrong, because, when you move to a larger group, there'll definately bound to have people with personality that is over yours. You may try to out do them, but you may just turn out to be a nuisance...

Busy will make you...

If you've been thinking alot of irrelevant things lately, it's best to occupy yourself with loads of work, especially for those that plan to "rot" at home this school holiday.

Find yourself something to do, like me, I've been working really hard on the up coming freshmen orientation in school, I am really thrill to be part of this whole thing and from it I will get to know more people form other courses. I can't wait for the actual event to start!

Avril is back!

Well most of you probably know, Avril Lavigne third album hits store this April! Here's "Girlfriend" form her new album "The Best Damn Thing":

Scooby-doo, where are you?!

Scooby-doo where are you? Do you know why everyone loves Scooby-doo so much? Or was it only me? For my reason, cos’ it’s a dog, it can talk and it’s funny. Well, these are only a small part. More importantly, it’s the friendship of the gang that makes me stick to this show so much. I remember when I was younger, every Saturday, I’ll just sat in front of the TV and anticipate the show, even though I know its repeated, but still, I’ll watch it as though the series’ never gonna end.

In reality, will friendships last forever? Maybe yes or not it depends on the understanding between each other. When crisis raises there are certain things that you thought you could mend it, you’ll only make it worst. Maybe you didn’t do anything wrong and no one blames you for it. But you’ll still feel bad about it and you’ll know how suck a friend you are or as an individual…

When emptiness fills...

Feelings can be suppessed,
Likes can be abandon,
Love can be hidden,
Enviousness is what that eats you up,
it'll fills you with nothing but emptiness.

Your life will suck up if you feels that...

30 Seconds To Mars - To Kill

Check out this not-very-known band, 30 Seconds To Mars... I personally think they'r pretty good though. If anyone know who's Jared Leto...his the lead singer...

Look at these

I thought our english are bad...but look at these, they are worst...
The "powerful"-ness of direct translation"...did I mention that the above pictures are taken form a Japanese website? Click here to see more pictures...

A new start?

The end of the exam, marks the end of year one in poly. Time really flies man~~ without me knowing its almost one year already. Alot of things happened, people past and went, new bonds are forged while some are broken, amendments are made but seemed far from sufficient and new knowledge are gained. Especially, the understanding of self, it just seems forever expending, when some events happens, it'll make you think that "do you really understand yourself?", these will all put you back to square one and you'll have to start all over again, well, maybe not all over again, it just pulled you back a little...

Random things

Your heart tells you what you really want, but your mind tells you what's right from wrong. If they don't synchronise, it'll only bring forth confusion and doubts. For then, you'll not want to know what are the things you want, and what are the things you need. You'll lose all your confidence and self-esteem for that, you'll not have faith in yourself and you'll lose all interest in doing all things...

Evil raises again...

If you've watched the beginning and the Apocalypse. Here is it, Resident Evil: Extinction.

In the midst of the festive season

In the midst of the Chinese New Year, while kids are happily collecting the red-packets and, the adults, dreadfully giving it to them. Its not only the adults that dreaded these days.

While you are travelling on the road going from house to house, you'll see people eating alone at void decks, these people may also dreaded these festive occasions, they probably don't have any family, even their friends are with their family. Just wonderful it is to have a family! Cherish it!

Can you imagine?

Well, Chinese New Year is drawing near and the semastral exam is not too far off. What the hell's wrong with the past half year? The things that I learnt seem to be easier but the stress is doubled, I am not a easily stressed person, so, this actually gets about me and its pretty nerve wracking too, having to complete so many projects in 1-2 weeks time. These are all just the beginning, its a new starting point for me, its been years since I've given so much drive. There's a bright route ahead, but it'll be a bumpy one and I've got no doubt about it...

Forget about the things above, now its my emancipation. Just like every other kid who anticipated the CNY, me too wanted it to come quickly, but before that I'll have to do some CLEANING, which can turn out to be torturous. You'll dig out thick layers of dust under the bed, the table and even places that you can't imagine of. When the cleaning is done, the usual things are still there, it'll look the same as before, maybe, a little more cleaner and neater. SO, WHAT'S THE POINT TO DO ALL THESE CLEANING? And we will again anticipate for another emancipation after which...

Well, what's the use?

People says people with high IQ is smart. They are not exactly right, yesh, part of the high-IQ people are really smart arshes, another part does'nt know how to use them and the other part are nuts. So, high IQ does'nt mean u are smart, and you are not stupid if you got low IQ...

How pathetic...

Sometimes, I wonder why poeple say the things they said over and over again, just what exactly is their agenda? What they really wan to get form it? If you think about it, you too, often do that. Just what exactly people gets form it? Well, probably some confidence, especially, when its something great and maybe, they are just to show off. For these, its still comprehensible, but for one, its pretty pathetic, that is, to make themselves feel better, worst if the things they said are lies, it gets even more ulgy when that person got lost over their thick lies...

Final Fantasy VII - One Winged Angel (Eminence Symphony)

This is one of my favourite piece of music, it gives me goosebum whenever I listen to it... enjoy!

Followed

I remembered when I was little, I used to mimic commercials shown on TV. If you think about it, life is just like “mimicking commercials”. Exactly how many times have you followed one's accomplishment?

Scissor Sisters - Laura

This is what that started it all, the first single from SCISSOR SISTERS!

And again...

Here's it again, another comical self-portrait...

The last day of 2006 and the very first day of 2007

Its 2007 already, I’m sure it’ll be another heretic year ahead for me, the coming CCAs and possibly the World Skill competition will surely corck it all up.

We (my fiends) always go to Esplanade for fireworks to sum up the year, but this year’s different, instead we went night cycling. I sure enjoyed myself even though it was a treacherous one. Feeling wracked up now, especially my butt, it’s like being punched continuously…

We rode from East Coast Park all the way till Changi Village, the worst part was the road beside the airport, and it’s straight like hell and seems never ending. It took us about 30 minutes to cycle from one end of the airport till the other. Our objective there (Changi Village) was only to eat. We spend our last few minutes on the beach and somehow, I felt weird, there’s no countdown, no fireworks, we didn’t even know it’d past 12 midnight. On our way back, at the “never ending road” some of us heard weird noises, like someone’s whispering behind us, at that time we felt so wracked up that no one wanted to bother, but thinking back it’s quite spooky actually.

We waited for dawn, and went home… What a great way to the last day and the very first day of 2006! And I hereby, wish everyone to have a great year ahead and Happy New Year!!!