Just a reminder?

I always try not to talk bad about others by telling myself that I'm not perfect in all terms and I'm in no position to talk about others bad point, but sadly, the guilt always come a step later...

Year 1?

I got an idea about what I wanted to be 4 years ago and still it is going strong but the road that I'd paved seemed to waiver a little. I am starting to regret that I forgo the interview for the moving images course, I may not have feel as bad if at least I went and try it out, having the thought of traveling so far to school everyday really turns me off.

People always said, "hey! You are good at that", but are you really that good? Maybe at that moment you impressed people, but when you go out there, there's always people that had achieved much more than you do. I always have this self-doubt-ness, that'd given me this thought that I just wanna be good and that's good enough for me. It somehow stop me from moving forward whenever I achieved a certain level of satisfaction.

This topic always surfaced whenever my friends have a random conversion, "Which unit or what you wanna be when you go for the national service?" Some said they want to be the police in the civil defense, some said they wan to be a pilot in the air force. I never thought of any, if really you want me to choose I'll go for the toughest one, I have to prove to others and more importantly to myself that I can achieve much more. And of cause this will serve as a break form school, to sort out what's dream, hobby and reality...

Perhaps, its the anxiety of having to meet new classmates that makes me think of all these things.

One year back

Looking back one year ago, I was in school this time preparing the freshmen orientation as an orientation group leader. Having to skipped my freshmen orientation two years back, to cover up, I signed up to be an OGL and of cause that's not the only reason, many of my classmates joint too. Through the one month plus in school, I got to know a lot of people, the seniors and the fellow OGLs, and of cause not forgetting the juniors, an enthusiastic bunch. The most fun part was to choreograph and learn the dance in a week's time and teaching the juniors in three days, we had to simplified the dance step to make sure that the juniors can comprehend it well. Below's labour of our work.